It is only today that I realized how important a person so close actually means to you. I know that it takes a long time to know a person but I believe I was not ready. We were not ready. Ready to face what we really are to each other, a log to cling on the bumpy rapids, a place to find warmth like a fireplace, a place to be! And maybe, I will find a place for forgiveness.
I do not know whether I was really prepared for it. It happened and I do respect it. I sit all day contemplating about my life, your life, a world I could’ve built by now, the decisions that led to this moment while I write this. And the long list of regrets I will always carry with myself and few marked as ‘guilts’ in this unforsaken time. I have never seen my reflection without my eyes gleaming with regrets.
There is a fundamental change. I may not be the same anymore, but I will be someone or I am someone…today! I may be termed as a pessimist for what I currently feel but I do not believe that no one ever felt this. Everyone had a moment in their lives where they just drifted in the unknown being in the most unfamiliar place. Well here I am in the very same phase. Maybe some are with me, some are past me and some never came to this place where I stand looking for an abstract situation to explain. I starve to explain myself. This is the reality I have come to. This is who I have become as of today.
